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Aint No Rest For The Wicked
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So.. I'm still around I've got plenty of stuff to submit but I haven't had the time.   :/

I'll do it as soon as possible.

Also I want to change my ID picture should it be a girly me or a manly picture?   

hehe anyway good luck to you all  :)

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Update

6 min read
So a quick update on how I've been.

I've been doing some good drawings and sketches that I'll upload ASAP also I plan to finish some old projects but I haven't had time because Work.
Also I have a side project of photographing any relatively unique or cool car of my town. so expect some of that uploads too,

Also I will be changing my ID picture but I don't know if I'll upload a girly pic or a cool me photo XD.






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Well after what I think has been the crappiest 4 months of my life are finally over I'm just getting up my feet again.
But in short this happened to me.

Grandpa had a health problem and had to be hospitalized, with half of his body paralyzed
Spent my time going to take care of him just as I leave work (this was not a bad thing)
MyGrandpa Died and this has been the most sad day of my life,
That day actually woke up scared at 5 am with no apparent reason at 8:00 am my Mom calls me to tell me the sad news,

And from there everything went to shit.

I quit my job
Then I lost my recently bought camera.
Then I bricke my phone
Had to Sell my psp, because I had no money.
stopped seeing my friends
I unattended my house and not moved or cleaned a single thing
Got an infection (dengue) because the cap on my water suply (tinaco) fell of and was contaminated

Then Good Thing! my uncle invites to a project he started in another city to work with him.
I pack my things and leave my house as that and move there.

Since everything was going ok after a month. I decide to ask my cousin to lend me some money to go another state at a concert, bought the tickets, and then the very weekend my uncle told me that he wasn't able to continue with the project.

So fuck I decide to still go to the concert because I already had purchased the ticket anyway I ask my dad for his camera and I went there.
I couldn't even enter the concert because... and this is totally my fault got very drunk during the trip but for some reason I actually had enormous blackouts that the only thing I remembered is being alone on the parking lot with no ticket.
Then I totally screwed up because I hit one of the transportation bussed because I don't know why and got in trouble with security so I had to gave them my camera just to let me go.
Still so freaking confused leave the location of the concert with nothing with me than my sunglasses

I lost my bag, two cell phones my wallet with all the money I had left my jacket my dad's camera ant some little stuff.
so I walked for maybe 6 hours totally dizzy and not really knowing what was going on in a state I din't know fortunately I have a friend living there. I reached a Mall someone lend me their phone and contacted my buddy told me his address and went there he borrowed me some money. ok so basically lost everything there.

 week later.
Tmy sister tolds me she wants to support me to get back to school again wich i thing it's great and i tell my mom and everything seemed good.
The weekend I decided to spent it with some friends and go swimming turns out my grand got worried because I did not visited her and make a big big feal out of it

Called my mom and got my mom worried (let me remind you I has no phone so they couldn't reach me) and start these freaking search because the thought I might be dead or something they called my dad my mom was planning to came back from U.S. just to look for me they called my uncle and then my sister went search for me at my house and saw the mess I had and worsened they thoughts because it was so much that it looked like I had been robbed or something,
Iy's until the night that I found about this and call my mom and she was criying like crazy and I didn't had the chance to explain anything.

Next day I discover that my sister sent pictures of the house to my mom and decided she wasn't  gonna support me with the school, and again I can't explain that I was in fucking great depression still I carried on with my sanity almost broken and my will crushed,

Stopped talking to my mom for some time.
Lost my ipod and so on. this continued for maybe ! and a half or maybe two months so basically my life was shit I even considered to kill myself already the only thing that stopped me is thinking that if my mom barely could take that situation she could not  get over the fact that I take my life that could totally destroy her. And that keeps me from doing it, otherwise I woul've done it some time ago.


Anyway enough with the sad part. now on the brighter side.
I got my job back a Month ago, actually not the same job but in the same companny and I don't have anything to do with my old boss wich was the reason I quitted that and the sadness of my granpa.

I'm very happy with the enviroment It's funny because I'm basically the only guy in my department but for some reason (actually s because I'm girly) I fitted in, and everyone has been nice.

Also started seeing my friends again I  cleaned my house and my humour has been good so i think tha everything is getting fixed up.
and that's bassically all I lnow you won't read this but still it was nice cathartic eperience just to write it and sorry for the misspells It's 4 am and I'm tired.

And now I'll put some relevant DA stuff on top XD


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Small Tought

3 min read
So I've been okay recovering fot the past months in wich I was unemployed anyway I'll talk to you about something that a friend of mine said to me today, and made me think.

A couple of years ago I finally decided to show the things I liked. Like you know girly things and if there is something I like about my circle of friends is that they are very open so I feel relieved, because I've never felt judged or anything, someone could make a joke about the new girly thing I was using but they didn't mean to offend me and I even participated in mocking me.
And that for me was a very big step in my life and that resulted in a huge self stem boost to me.

So to the point of this journal.

Last week I was with my friends at a party and I decided to take an Xtasy (tacha) to get the party going (wich I don't regret) that was to be hines my second time altough my first was just a quarter of it.

Long story short, I ended up kissing with my best girl friend wich I don't kno if she remembers it or not, or she is turning a blind eye to it, I just don't know  we were both pretty drunk.

Well again I diverged from the point. The thing id that today me and my friends were at a local party called "the barrios" wich is only celebrated in our town. A friend of mine was recalling that party las weekend and he says- Man last week  you were all accelerated (?) *I don't know if that the slang in english for very wasted and drugged or something.           And then he says:      "Man, what have you become"

*noteworthy, for many years I was ans I kind of still am considered the mos calmed, shy and sensible among my friends in all my years knowing them, never took drugs or smoked pot with them just got drunk.

Anyway he saying that what I have become, made me think.

It is not what I have become, I think is more like what I finally decided to show, I don't thin that you are a different person while you are with some people ans you're other when with another.

I think you just show a part of your personality, a part of you depending on the situation, or the confidence you have with someone.

And that my fiends is what is happening I gained enough confidence with me and my friends that I'm not afraid to show more of the real me, the one that could carry a purse in front of every one and not give a damn about it, or the one who dares to take some Xtasy and know that every way I react they won't judge me afterward.

And that is my conclusion WE DON'T CHANGE JUST SHOW A DIFFERENT PART OF US WHEN NECESSARY OR WHEN COMFORTABLE but at the end we are just one person with all kind of tastes and that is what makes us awesome!
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MEME-ME

1 min read
Go ahead put me any meme ane I'll do it

tengo ganas de hacer un meme de Deviant, sugieranme uno y lo hare jeje
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